As Spring grows nearer, it seems to become just a little more painful to wait for that moment when we can step into the day and feel the warmth of the sun on our skin. The anticipation of the moment that the Earth wakes up again is so delicious, but so uncomfortable. As we watch the ground thaw and touches of color reappear, it awakens a part of us. We can breathe deeper, wake up earlier, smile bigger. We share the Earth’s renewal.
Rebirth and transformation occurs all through our lives. It is necessary to go through periods of uncomfortable change so we can grow toward the path that we came into this life to walk. One of my favorite quotes about rebirth is “For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. To someone who doesn’t understand growth, this would look like complete destruction.” – Cynthia Occelli.
For those of us on a self-proclaimed path of spiritual development, you may be familiar with the term “dark night of the soul.” It is the moment where the framework of your life as you know it collapses. Your attachments to your identity fall away and you are left stripped of everything you knew to be “true” for you. Eckhart Tolle describes it as, “… a term used to describe what one could call a collapse of a perceived meaning in life…an eruption into your life of a deep sense of meaninglessness. The inner state in some cases is very close to what is conventionally called depression. Nothing makes sense anymore, there’s no purpose to anything. Sometimes it’s triggered by some external event, some disaster perhaps, on an external level. The death of someone close to you could trigger it, especially premature death, for example if your child dies. Or you had built up your life, and given it meaning – and the meaning that you had given your life, your activities, your achievements, where you are going, what is considered important, and the meaning that you had given your life for some reason collapses.”
This is a moment often described by the saying, “It is darkest before the dawn.” While submerged in this time of darkness we come closer to our Truth, our essence of being. We begin to look for something bigger than ourselves to bring purpose to this time of grief. The things that are most important in life become clear. We are in fact dying in a sense so something new can be reborn. Our survival of those low points in our life are what makes life so intensely beautiful. How could you know true joy and wholeness if you have not experienced these times of darkness? Isn’t it amazing that in a time of such confusion and loss, that we can experience true clarity?
Just as the delicate crocus faces the challenge every year to push through the icy ground, it does it with strength and courage because it knows at the end of this painful transformation and journey it will get to feel the warmth of the sun on its petals.
This is the perfect time of year to reconsider your place in this life. Are you living each day on autopilot, not truly feeling or seeing the world around you? Do you connect with passion or purpose within the roles you play? Often the fear of pushing the boundaries of our comfort zone prevents us from discovering our Soul Purpose. We know it will “hurt” in some way so we avoid the growth.
The choice is yours….stay in a permanent slumber under ground OR follow the path of the gentle Crocus and take the challenge to push toward the Sun. You will survive the journey and as a result you will thrive.